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that's what i am. very much so. of everything. tired of working, tired of talking nonsense, tired of going to church on sundays, tired of wearing a stupid mask. i'm tired of not knowing how he feels about me. the uncertainty is what kills me.
i only have slept 5 hours after working hard for 11, so you can't really blame me for such a random post. sorry and all that crap. i think i'll go to bed soon-ish. man.
yeah. i dyed my hair.

i made it to the faroe islands finally, after delayed and cancelled flights...
i am now looking for a job to get started rght away, but i don't know how long it'll take to find one. i'll probably end up working in the fish factory, which is fine, a job is a job is a job and all that, and if i don't like it too much i could probably change it after a few months. but yeah, we'll see. i think i should be fine with whatever, i mean, i'm tough enough to do anything pretty much. i'm looking forward to it anyway.
i love my cousins. they are great!! anyway.

nope, i have just decided that i am decidedly not awake. even though i'm writing this as we speak. or as i type and you read. or you don't even bother reading. but who cares!!!
it is late, or rather, early, and i think both my braincells are nearly dead. i have no clue why i'm still up, i think it's because i'm trying to defy the laws of science by being the first human being to survive with no braincells. but maybe then again, it might be because i'm chatting to my boyfriend and i really, really miss him. 
i think it's mainly the latter. the former has already been acheived by myself, many times before. 
anyway, i think i shall pawp awf now.

i am in the middle of re-backcombing and re-waxing my dreads. kind of. well, i was doing it earlier, and i got tired, so yeah, i stopped. with half of my head covered in wax and half of it nice and soft... i will complete it soon. before i go to bed anyway. it's getting late! oh nooooooo!!! oh well. i still have to do it.
my aunt is getting married on saturday. i have got an eclectic outfit sorted out for it. pink tights are awesome... i like 'em. hmm... maybe i'll put some photos on here after it's all over. maybe not. we'll see.
anyway.
rock on.

i love that symbol. # that one. it's the one i use as a kind of secret code thingy and it means my boyfriend :D i really, really love him.
anyway, it's late, and i'm getting tired, and the laptop is running out of steam, so i think this won't be too long. not that anyone really cares... but anyway!!
i wish i was back in turkey with him. he rocks. i miss him. a heck of a lot. but i have to wait 4 whole months before i can see him again... darn it. web cam doesn't count as "seeing" someone, at least not in my book. it's kind of like in the naked sun by asimov, there's the discussion between the hero and the baddy, who happens to be a woman.
even random rambling for now!